I Am Bulimic - True Story, Now What?

Am I Bulimic

I am bulimic. I know that I am, and really try to regulate my binging and purging, but I can't stop compulsively overeating completely. I've tried. It's too hard.

Right now I limit my episodes to about once a week, when things are good. When I'm stressed, depressed, or worried, all bets are off. I have vomited up after a "stuffing myself" session 4 times in one day. And sometimes this goes on for a couple of days. I don't know how much I officially damaged my body, but I may have a stomach ulcer.

After a bad week my throat is so scratchy and irritated that I can't speak without choking or coughing. And the worst part is, I'm still fat. I am bulimic and obese. I hate myself. I never feel good, not on the inside. I need help.

If weight loss surgery could help me I would do it tomorrow. But if I take away my ability to binge and purge then what do I have, what could I do? There's way too much pressure in my life to take away my only help. But my help hurts. So now what?